Hooray for waking up to sunshine! And hanging washing out! And garden play!

Today was a funny day, in that I didn’t feel as emotional as yesterday, but I just felt a bit unmotivated. Maybe it’s the tiredness, or just the post-tearful day of yesterday. Maisie’s still pretty unwell with a high temperature, so I’ve been keeping an eye on her. Micah was happy to get out but also extremely grumpy. It’s been tough on him having Liam in the house but not very accessible when dealing with lots of work issues.

We FaceTimed Grandma and the aunties, which was slightly chaotic on our end, although honestly, they’re not much more sensible than we are. The only time I did get really sad today was when Micah was upset and just wanted ‘Grandma-y’. Because really we just all want a Grandma hug right now, don’t we? A big cuddle and a reminder it’ll all be ok.

I’ve started to be concerned that by the time we’re released back into society I will a) have gained several stone. b) be unable to do my hair or make up, and c) have lost all social skills. Not that they were great anyway…

I might have chosen to have a large family, and I LOVE my people, but I’m a bit of an introvert at heart. A wide range of kids ages means they’re around from early until late. The close proximity over the next few months will, I hope, build amazing family connections, and help us learn to reach out to family and friends in new ways, but it is going to challenge all of us I know.

We went for a drive this evening, just to see outside our four walls. We delivered a present to a special little friend’s doorstep, and then let the kids run races in an empty car park. It does feel a little like having a black cross on the door at times. Or feeling the need to ring a bell and shout ‘unclean’ when outside.

This evening brought positive news regarding support for businesses, which was a huge answer to prayer. I’m praying that all those whose jobs are at risk will be helped and provided for, and that we’ll all look for ways to help.

This morning when I felt anxious I sang out these words to a song I love, and tonight I’m thankful that once again they’re proving true:

I love You Lord
Oh Your mercy never fails me
All my days
I’ve been held in Your hands
From the moment that I wake up
Until I lay my head
I will sing of the goodness of God

All my life You have been faithful
All my life You have been so, so good
With every breath that I am able
I will sing of the goodness of God

I love Your voice
You have led me through the fire
In darkest nights

You are close like no other
I’ve known You as a father

I’ve known You as a friend
I have lived in the goodness of God. (Bethel music).

Happy Friday friends-enjoy the weekend.